The love thieves

I'm not sure what I'm looking for anymore
I just know that I'm harder to console
I don't see who I'm trying to be instead of me
But the key is a question of control...

This is the time. I knew it will come, but I could not prepare myslef for it. Now all delusions have gone away...I am left with nothing..no hope..no plans..no feelings. It's like the walls are closing in on me and I do not have the strength to stop them. Even tears are emotionaless right now...I have got to get myself out of that abyss of tragedy...the sooner the better...