..::The rumour has it::..

You don't understand when I'm attempting to explain,

because you know it all and I guess things will never change...

I'm letting go of you...and me, we're through...

I am really sick and tired of this...I've had it. How long is this going to take? It's just so depressing hearing all these strange things about me over and over again...who makes them up? And for what purpose? Aaaargh, I'm sick with anger! It's not the thing that I lost my friend, my beloved, my reputation...it's the question that's been bothering me from some time now:Why these stupid little people can't just make me a favour and leave me alone?Mhm?! Am I THAT interesting? I hardly think so...you talk to somebody, you have a nice chat...and then, all of the sudden everything's not right. You never know what hits you. And before you know it, everybody knows things that are completely untrue. It's like playing in Chinese whispers all the time. The best you can do is to stop talking at all! It's mad! I have to get away from this sick community...the sooner, the better.

You think that everybody's the same...I don't think that anybody's like you.

...BLINDED BY THE LIGHTS

Lights are blinding my eyes...people pushing by...I'm walking off into the night...

I think it's about time I wrote about my trip to Dublin. It took me a few days to gather my thoughts and here I am. It's really difficult to explain how it felt when I was there. I felt so many emotions, so much tension, I could almost sense the spirit of the city. I felt there at home, which is rather unusual cause I completely lack the sense of direction. But I didn't get lost...not once. The city itself is very beautiful, right after you get used to funny smells here and there. The litter on the street is also a big problem, but the closer to the city centre, the cleaner it is. When I arrived there...I was in shock! My brother put me to a cab and I sat on the LEFT side, it was extraordinary. But it was at night when I fully understood the true nature of this city. Thanks to Marta and Lukas(:D) who took me out to those amazing places...heh the thing with Kieran and the pullover :D It's remarkable and I won't forget it. So thank you guys so much:****

During these unforgettable nights I felt on top of the world.
I can't forget the things I have from there...the clothes&books...ZaMeK, I'm forever grateful:* You are the best:D:D

I really miss being there...walking from Manor Hall to Spar and back to buy cigarettes:P Heh..lovely:) I hope I'll come back there someday:)

But for the time being: FOKIN OJLYND ROCKS!!!!!!!!!