...I've got you under my skin...

I feel you...in every vein,

In every beating of my heart, each breath I take...

You take me where the kingdom comes,

You lead me to oblivion...

I have spent the last couple of days trying to forget him, trying to shake him from my skin, trying to erase his scent from my nostrils...but I just keep thinking about him, feeling him all over my body and smelling him each time I inhale... how's that possible? How come? I can't get rid of this burning sensation just at the mere thought of him. It's driving me insane, like I was being controlled by some divine force and nothing else matters. I know, I really do that everything's over now...we could never go back to these moments when he awakened something in me...something I never thought existed. No other man has ever made me feel like this before. But now, everything about him is like a black shade of a rose painted on the brightness of my heart. If I go too deep into it, I'll feel the sharp pain of its thorn, tearing me apart. When things have come undone, there is nothing more I can do but to keep these precious memories in my mind to haunt me. They say it's never over til' it's over...I guess this is WAY over..I just have to deal with it...and so does he. Until we find someone real...someone who'll fill our world with everything we need to start living...someone who's more than a memory...